I feel crushed Like a bug under a giant shoe I’m a stained glass window But light doesn’t shine through who I am anymore I take everything in through the heart I feel before I think My heart is a spider web Everything getting trapped and wound up tight, to keep and eat Sucking on […]

The Happiness Mountain I built Now it comes crumbling down I spent so many days Herding my thoughts around I was fine I was calm It was nice When I could spend all day Trying to fix (save) my life But now it is over Take cover Virus Electrocution Death by paper Smothered

I never want to see you cry again I never want to see the tears I never want to hold you while you shake Or see real life become your worst fears I never want to hurt someoneBecause they have hurt you But believe me when I say It’s something I would do I’m sorry […]

Imagine how she felt The things I’d like to ask But here I am Footprints in the sand Ghosts from the past If only If ever I couldn’t – Don’t say! As it was then It is Today

I can’t believe you were HERE tonight Here where I lay right now I thought I would never see you again What a speech you gave somehow Like SUGAR Like cupcakes Cake Candy Dessert Like tissue paper Eggshells and creme brûlée Fragile And bound to get hurt

Oh we’re playing with fire alrightOr are we?One of us isBut neither one of us is willing to give up our flint rockPerhaps the forbiddenness of our allianceIs what makes it seem so naturalSo necessary for survivalPrimitive? Not yetAm I the cat, or the mouse?In all scenarios that I relay to myselfI am the catExcept […]

The front that goes up It’s blinding Reminds me of Jonah That rough n tough exterior That “I don’t give a fuck” It’s wasn’t true with him, and it’s not true with you And I know because I’ve seen it That warm, gooey interior The thing y’all refuse to show the world Because you were […]

I want something On paper, concrete, a handkerchief That I can come back to Revisit again and again So that I don’t have to seek out And go to each little crevice and corner of my synapses To find What it was we had And were doing In that chair there And in that chair […]

I don’t want to feel that heat I mean I do, I want to feel the heat but The heat combined with the magnetic force field… May Obliterate Me All of this forward seeing, foreshadowing combustion I don’t even want to volunteer for this mission But how can I live without This is what I […]

You couldn’t get it out You couldn’t express what you were feeling You just put it all on me Until you couldn’t anymore And you said three words And then you said three words It’s times like these I see myself for who I really am It’s times like these I wish I did have […]

It was like clockwork No one has ever done anything like that to me before Dare I tell you this, and you would not believe me You are breaking me down Though I’ve sworn myself unwavering, Here I am letting my mind wander And next tragically and truly, My heart I’m starting to trust you […]

When I miss you It swirls me Like pigment floating on top of water A finger dipped in and vigorously spun around Like gasoline on glass

Second thoughts are not the two words I would choose To describe what I feel now Post mortem But I do now reconsider letting you in Time is not the only variable to consider in this equation I do wish I do, I wish That I recalled more However it is but a tell tale […]

He must think me daft As this is how he’s only seen me I’ve spoken of my triumphs But he has seen none Crushed, torn apart, in sheer despair am I All for his heart that I may never have, that may not even exist The footsteps that lead up to the place where I […]

my heart smiles and shines when yours is close to mine of all the many things i don’t let myself think about i forgot you were one of these even then, there when i saw you even then when your fingers ran through my hair it was dark i’m a million hues darker now more […]

I lost her I’m sorry I lost her I found her But by the time I found her I didn’t recognize her Something feral shined in her eyes Like she had seen someone slain before her Like she had seen herself slain before her Taken, over and over again Wrists scarred Heart hole gaping Blood […]

Here’s an idea Stop being fucking infuriating Can’t have it your way, you have no way You have ways that are foreign to me Why did you look at me differently today? You cut deep Nothing could be further from me than you You brush past, brush me off You brush past and my body […]

I think maybe you’re just like me Mirror images In a parallel Main Street Pass the windows Look up I’m standing there Across the street Palms facing you What’s in my eyes? Desire, lust Passion, fire But wait I’ve turned away My hair swishes in slow motion As I take the first step And another […]

Salt of the earth? No Scum of it Was I not worth the trouble? Or Not worth the hike There were things you wanted And I could have been a key You swallowed the key Stripped down And then dove into the murky water Knowing that I was too timid to follow I stood there […]